Waking up sick most of the time, getting a hold of whoever I can to set that up and then from there whether it was stealing or borrowing, I guess. Breaking into houses, cars. Stealing from my parents, jewelry whatever I can get my hands on that I could sell for cash that’s what I planned on doing to feed my drug addiction. If it was a good day, hopefully by 1 o’clock in the afternoon I had something. If it was a bad day I would have to wait for night time and deal with the sickness all day. When I was doing drugs, there was no future, it was almost like I was in quicksand and I felt disappointed, sad and hurt. I felt regretful and I couldn’t see how I was going to get any better. I just wanted it to end.
My relationship with my dad before I got to Ventura Recovery Center was… it was very distant. We used to be very close growing up he’s always been there, and been my best friend. My drug addiction taking over my daily life that was broken and I didn’t have that relationship anymore.
Now that I’ve gone through the steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, and went through long term treatment, and turned my life around. He’s proud of me now and talks to me on a daily basis. I know that he sees in me the man he raised me to be. Which is I know it makes him happy, going through the amends process, and clearing up some questions about my addiction and behavior during that addiction, was huge to get over that and move forward. I think our relationship is stronger now, than it’s ever been. I feel like I have a future now, as before I didn’t, when I was in my drug addiction. I feel like some of the dreams and goals I had for my life are back, and I feel like I can accomplish those things and went to drug treatment. Finishing school possibly getting back into athletics, and getting in to the field of coaching, and kind of leading by example and sharing the path I’ve taken in my life. With the kids I will come in contact with coaching and possibly share my story with them. And help them through some situations that they’re dealing with, what I’ve already dealt with. What would I say to someone new coming into Ventura Recovery Center? Take advantage of the time u have here. Maybe do what I did, and do the work just to prove everybody wrong that it’s not going to work, and you’ll be surprised what happens.